"A man's steps are directed by the LORD.
How then can anyone understand his own way?"
"There is no wisdom, no insight, no plan
that can succeed against the LORD. The horse is made ready for the day of battle,
but victory rests with the LORD."
"I know, O LORD, that a man's life is not his own;
it is not for man to direct his steps."
I can't really express how much these verses meant to me, especially after the last couple of hours. I just found out (well I guess "found out" is not the proper term), or maybe more like "realized" that the next few weeks are going to be awful at work. I am not used to quarter reviews in audit because I have mainly done federal audits (and we only have a year end). Anyway, this is going to be highly stressful for me 1) Because almost everyone is new to the audit, 2) I have a huge learning curve I am still trying to leap, 3) We just got a tone of new software that we are all trying to figure out, and 4) We have a little over a week.
So what does this mean? It means overtime and lots of it. It means that I will be eating at work and possibly working on Saturdays. This causes a problem for me since I have to make a cake for someone by the 31st and I need my Saturdays for that (and I actually need a Friday as well). I also have a friend coming on the 31st and so I will get to spend very little time with him. This is all just overwhelming for me because I am not used to working late hours out of busy season times. This isn't even busy season and we are working late hours. My question is "how will I survive?" and "will I have enough time to get everything done?". Ivan is fine with the late hours, and he doesn't care. It is just really hard on me. There isn't much I can do but just deal with it. These verses however, do give me some hope. They help just to remind me that God is in control, not me, not Ivan, not KPMG, not Lockheed, not anyone. God is in control of our lives, and He guides them. I am just in constant prayer that God will continue to guide us and give me happiness and contentment in the situation in which He has placed me right now. It is very difficult for me because I am not content and I just pray that He will give me that. I can tell you that if it doesn't come from God, it isn't coming! I am just praying that the Lord will also just show us some home and give us some direction. I feel like I am just sitting still.. like there is no movement and I have no clue what God wants for us next. It becomes very easy to feel like God has forgotten us, and that we will be in this same situation forever. However, I have to rest in these verses and know that God has plans for us.